Lottie

Don’t take anything personally

Sometimes, I feel sad because of my past. I often think about feeling abandoned, alone, unloved, and unimportant. These feelings come up more than I would like and I wanted to share it with you. Through my parenting journey, now for 3 and a half years, it’s hard to believe. I continue to grow andContinue reading “Don’t take anything personally”

Faux Family

Going through the trials and tribulations of my life at now 41 to realize, always knowing but not able to believe, that people can take take take and never give or to care for others emotions or time. I’ve known that I’ve been the black sheep of my family and friends circles, but just likeContinue reading “Faux Family”

Beautiful Blessed and Loved

As I am preparing for my second mediation and potential court case, I have to review all documentation to ensure that I have all my facts straight. This has been a fear of mine because of triggers and PTSD. While I was reading the text messages, I’ve come to realize that maybe I have beenContinue reading “Beautiful Blessed and Loved”

Radical Acceptance

As I’m struggling emotionally through the next leap in my daughters gradual parenting time schedule. I was tasked to work on acceptance and forgiveness as my councilor is on Vacation . As I was pondering these two topics, I came to realize that even though custody court has been complete for 8 months, and my daughterContinue reading “Radical Acceptance”

Photographs

We take pictures of moments that we want to last forever, like this picture of my 1st birthday. Priceless… Why can’t we control our mind like we control when we chose to take pictures? We need to cherish every moment as we are not promised tomorrow. With this new growth, philosophy and understanding, I’ve beenContinue reading “Photographs”

Growth Stage I

We can grow beautiful humans inside our bodies and have unconditional love for them that is unexplainable or imaginable, but we can’t show that same love to our core. I have a little girl inside me that is about 6 or 7, that has been hiding behind the most beautiful tree with a beautiful grassContinue reading “Growth Stage I”